Jesuit Novitiate
Novitiate of the Euro-Mediterranean Province of the Society of Jesus

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The longing for God

by Cornel Barna

When I was a child I used to watch the stars, dreaming with open eyes big things, getting emotional in front of thousands of stars as if they were close to me. These days, returning from the apostolate, on the way to the novitiate, I stopped and I raised my head. Wonderful!! In the dark of the night, the sky glowed with a light show: thousand of stars, big and small, were forming a gorgeous design. Who has not stopped, at least once, if only for a moment, to look at this splendor ?! The starry sky makes us feel a deep desire, an ardent longing to return to God and be at the home of the Father.

The Lent that has just begun is nothing but a return to the desire for God, a nostalgic search of his face from the bottom of our heart. For this we set in motion, holding the banner of the cross, focusing on our Lord in order to learn and develop a triple relationship.

A right relationship with ourselves, giving space to fasting from our inordinate affections to let  the primacy of God, his look of mercy and love, win inside us.

A true relationship with the Father in the silence of prayer, enjoying God through every thought, word and daily act, feeling his sons and beloved disciples, like John under the cross. And so experiencing every day a merciful relationship with our neighbors, giving as alms our time, our availability and – with great joy and generosity – ourselves.

Lent is the opportunity to feel in need of God, and to have always before us the nostalgia of watching the spectacle of the sky with the unquenchable hope that the True Sun will rise in the morning.

A time of penance and reconciliation

by Gianluca Severin

“Do you do penance?” a lady from the parish asked me as we left Mass. The question calls forth hair shirts, fasting and scourges, the shadow of a religious life imbued with mortification.As novices we become aware of our life, even of our sins, and we also live as penitents. But penance does not arise from and is not aimed at pain.

There is a penance related to sin itself: it is the situation created around and within us by our sins: anxieties, bitterness, rigidity, damaged relationships, renunciations, lost opportunities, offended dignity or health.If I have failed in a friend’s reliance on me, I will have to endure his hesitation to trust me again and that flash, however brief and hidden, of doubt in his eyes at my words. God does not add anything to punish us, he does not add a wrong from Him to the wrong we have done. Here we can experience the truth of our choices.

There is a penance linked to contrition: it does not matter how much and how many times we part ourselves from Him, when we choose the way home, God run towards us to embrace us again and renew our relationship; however, the wounds and fractures we have caused to ourselves and to our brothers and sisters and of which we are now aware remain. Repentance is industrious, it calls us to take care, to repair, to apologize, to return what we have stolen “four times as much”, even if the brothen is not willing to believe in our repentance and to forgive us. Here we can experience our responsibility.

There is a penance in order to walk in the opposite direction from what distances us from ourselves, from our brethren and from God; this commitment is called ascesis or, ignatianly, agere contra. It takes patience and perseverance to heal those habits that pollute our time and our relationships. The distinctive trait of this penance is not the pride in what we are able to impose on ourselves but the joy of living more fully. Here at the novitiate, the alarm goes off early so that we can pray before diving into the flow of the day. If I cannot get up, I do not have to give up fruit for lunch: I have to get up, every day, at the sound of the alarm clock. Here we can experience our freedom.

There is suffering for the evil of the world that those who set out on the path of the Lord experience more acutely.It is the suffering of the mother for the child who is losing their life, of the friend for a withering friend, of God, our Father and Brother, for us when we refuse His gifts: life, love, reason, freedom… In the face of evil our heart does not remain indifferent, sometimes it calls to action, even to sacrifice, sometimes it calls to closeness, patience, witness. Here we can experience the Cross and compassion.

We are always called to conversion and renewal; love, not pain, saves.


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